let the drunk type begin.

this'll probably take way longer than necessary to type w/ all the spelling and gramatical errors, but thank God i'm sover enough to use the spell check.

anyhoo, i'm drinking. and taking a few rips. hoping my parents will just leave me alone soon.

they're totally down with me moving in 2 months. which is AMAZING bc i need to get out. i shouldn't have to go sit on the front porch or hang out the window to smoke a bowl. i'll miss the front porch chillin, but its time i got my own space.

they hate me getting wasted here, but i'm sorry, i'm not gonna just leave when i wanna be at home.

at least i get wasted at home. and i don't have to worry abt getting arrested at home!

its stems and shit all around my room.

and caps.

and wine bottles. haha. must get beer tomorrow.

if hunger is the best spice, sadness is the best thirst quencher.

6. i don't take care of myself. i'm working on it.

introspection realizations.

introspection: n. Contemplation of one's own thoughts, feelings, and sensations; self-examination.

(what better way to examine my own thoughts than by writing them down and asking myself questions later?now, to get into the habit of doing this regularly..)

1. i don't blog enough. i'm lazy. no fronting on that. if i weren't so lazy and just that much more diligent, i'd be 40 times happier with myself.

2. i hate liars because they take my choices. can't stand the shit. who are you to take away my ability to do what's best for me?

3. 9 times outta 10, i don't want to make choices. i'm naturally indecisive. i want to do what's best for everyone else, but i wanna do what's best for me too... i just have a hard time deciding which is more important.

4. my priorities are as follows: 1. make everyone happy. 2. don't make anyone sad. 3. don't make yourself sad. 4. make yourself happy.

5. above priorities are great, but out of order.